Thursday, 9 November 2017

Class contact time

I admit, the part time study is starting to get to me. The after work hours and the commute started off fine, but as we progress into the semester, it nags and claws at me. Even with only two subjects there's a lot going on right now. My mind is constantly busy. Work. School. Socially. It is not an even distribution of my time or my thoughts. 

I usually get to campus early and find somewhere quiet to sit before class. There has been a lot of recent press on the psychological effect of push notifications. It's silly, but I look at my phone waiting for that message. This isn't healthy. Not sure if I can keep this up.

"And if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like you've been here before?" - Bastille

Sunday, 22 October 2017

Siem Reap

The final guy on the High school friends group to get married. Everybody is so grown up.

Beautiful wedding. Sometimes it's weird, my memories of these boys are frozen in time. From year 7 to year 12, which is over 17 years ago. It's unusual seeing them doing adult things. Getting married, having families, it feels like I'm a spectator watching a film.

Supposed to come back on Sunday, whole wedding party leaving for Phnom Penh. I've done zero sightseeing this trip. Hotel, pool, read, sleep. One more day of chilling out before another midterm exam ...

Thursday, 12 October 2017

Fall Mid Term Exams

It's my first mid-term exam in YEARS. Sure, I've had regulatory papers, and that failed GRE attempt, but for the most part I have not sat a three hour exam in ages. A little bit stressed out as it's after a full day of work. At least it's an open book exam albeit the size of my desk barely fits an A4 sheet of paper!

Monday, 9 October 2017

Mystery cake

Received an ice cream cake from an unknown sender.

It broke the office knife.

Tuesday, 3 October 2017

Los Angeles

I've been looking forward to this trip all year! The reasons for the anticipation have changed over time, but things were firmly fixed on seeing the Bride and the Groom. One thing that has been lingering is the fact that school has started and that I was set to miss lectures and that we had an Project Approval due whilst I was overseas.

Friday, 22 September 2017

Breathe in, breath out

The last few weeks; I've lost count of the number of times a medical professional has asked whether or not I feel heart palpitations, tightness in the chest or feeling light headed. Each time I answered no.

However, all this heart talk and the busy school schedule finally catches up on me. I find myself sitting in a lecture theatre. The lecturer stands behind the podium attempting to explain Principal Component Analysis (PCA), I don't understand what he's describing. I look around the class and think about what I need to pack for my trip tomorrow morning. Dam, I still need to pack. Suddenly, I can't breath. I have to consciously tell myself to inhale and exhale. I pull out my phone and Google what's happening. It's my first panic attack.

Wednesday, 20 September 2017

Cardiologist: The results

Update on my heart situation. I have now been to the hospital six times since the first visit. I've had to go in to return hardware, perform tests and be updated. The tests performed, include: 24-hour ECG/holter, performing and MRI, going back for the MRI scan, doing another 24-hour ECG only to be told everything looks fine.

Had an interesting MRI experience, where I needed to go to the toilet halfway through the screening and the male technician reluctantly attached a bed pan to my junk.

So what's the outcome?

That I have three options:

a. Stop exercising
b. Take Beta blockers
c. Ablation/minor surgery

All three options are not ideal.